I assess the offer. Does this fit with the ideals I have set for this adventure? The trip is about recognizing and learning from the decisions I make apart from familiar influences. Its about listening to my body and burning through to know my authority. So here I am faced with a major trip changing decision and virtually no time to decide. I walk away and stand by myself, looking out at the sea feeling into my body. My frugal mind is assessing - tropics, free accommodations, good company … I feel my body lean slightly to the right. Then a tingling from my legs and a knowing that to go would mean a very different kind of trip than I want and need. While a free bed in a Cabo condo is an attractive proposition, this trip is about movement, inner and outer.I feel a slight shift back to centre and I know I must graciously say no. Doing so produces a kind of elation that carries me through the rest of Christmas day. It is my present to myself.
Later I make a Christmas call from a confectionery store to snowy Victoria and connect with Elizabeth. The call leaves me feeling warm and blessed for our friendship and her amazing support for my personal adventure.
After a coffee from the corner taco stand I take a morning trip to a another grave yard and spend several breezy hours scanning the deep blue Sea of Cortez. The sweet smell of the sea , the celebration sounds from the town below and the feeling that all is right are another gift on this day. Sitting there I feel the pull of the Sonoran desert beyond the reach of my vision. I feel the pull and know I must take the ferry on boxing day. This trip is about movement and when I stop moving I feel the dull familiar start to creep in. Movement has the effect of a big steel wheel on a rail, producing enough heat and inertia to burn through to my core.
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